This sativa-hybrid nug, however, looked much the same as I remembered it from a few months ago—an inviting green with yellow highlights, covered in crystals, and proudly sporting its outdoor sugar leaves! The smell had also lost no pungency—it was a combination of sweet, sour, and perfumey notes, where you can tell it’s that forreal, forreal dank without even smoking. The nug was slightly sticky from all the trichomes, but I used a grinder to break it down before wrapping it in a Dutch.
The sun and weed worked in tandem, on my body first, and as a result also on my spirit. Almost immediately after I started feeling this high, I noticed my soreness dissipating without even a stretch. The sun warmed my exterior and the weed worked on my muscles through the interior. Tying my sun worship/melanin activation to my blunt ritual made the moment special spiritually as well—ancient messages settled into my skin as I released internal stress and doubts with my smoke, choosing instead in each moment faith and perseverance. Mentally, this strain fosters a calm, euphoric haze perfect for being gentle with reflections and allowing thoughts to pass without judgement, though I was definitely spacey in the grocery store after! Below are some affirmations & reminders to myself that came from this moment of active reflection.
Chernobyl Sun Meditations…
*Invest my time and energy wisely immediately, the decisions I make now will have lasting impact on mine and others’ futures.
*Be conscious in each moment of the choices I am making. What actions do I repeatedly choose and mistake as my nature or fate?
*I challenge myself to do one “annoying” thing that I always put off per day—sticking to my cleaning schedule, making a long overdue phone call, paying a bill, holding chair pose ( one of my least favorite) for the full breath cue etc.
*Breaking habits and creating new ones comes from the accumulation of individual acts, so every little thing IS important at this stage.
*Pay attention to my body’s hints and RESPECT THEM ALL.
I invite you to try on these themes for yourself in your own form of self-reflection, self-appreciation, and self-encouragement. If you’re also going through it, keep going bitch!
~ Kenya Ku$h ~